The Next Morning, Neglect, Embarrassment (but what's really going on here?), and Being too far Away from Heavy Situations

1. confused, wondering what would have been if I had in fact joined the adventure. i'd have seen, and been clueless; or; no throwing would have taken place. More on this: a shrug of the lip, squint of the eye. suprise can be heavy too.

2.  shit. coping. a broken 'furthermore' 

and frustration by allergic reaction.

-wild horses scraped my ribs on the pointing fingers of mountain ranges-

mountain rage

"It's that your errands and chores mean more"

Business as usual.

3. a Cracked lip, i separate.

egg yolk to white. becoming glue. becoming

you.

supernatural embarrassment;

i care about you. and i don't know what that means (i hate that you heard it all).

maybe i am diseased

sick to my guts like rat poison cranberry

a high tide vomit city. tearing girl down like an ink stain.

i am so sorry.

4. You see I don't like being on the outside.

Quiet Town

exercises

the hardest ross ever works

what a buick*

(* In Lucky Number Slevin, the Rabbi says how his father went to see North by Northwest and came out calling Eva Marie Saint a ''buick" => Beauty.)

the descent

the decent

the dissent

the descent! 

RUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNN! oh my gad! RUHHHHAN!

The world is changing with open eyes. But all the blood and guts in my body are still blood and guts. Here, spilling out organs like a child, shining and red and grey and purple and redder still. perfect symmetry of the face why dont you cut me. 

now ive got metal in my face and its killin the humdrum sort of

 yayyyyyyy.

YEAH BUT, nobody searches. nobody cares somehow WE SPIEs, WE SLOW HANDS. (I submit my incentive is romance, I watched the poll dance of the stars)...

god what a good feeling i'm feeling. tu es tout petit, mon meilleur ami. la seul chose qui m'aggace c'est d'changer les piles. shit shit shit.

I'm trying I swear I'm trying to do the right thing.

(Hey you know Everybody's always talkin about the good old days right? evvvverybody, the good old days the good old days. Well lets talk about the good old days)

(Slow Hands - Interpol; Mon Meilleur Ami - Yelle ; Enter the Wu Tang - Wu Tang Clan)

A Tom Sandwich on Woman Bread

Come gather 'round people

Wherever you roam

And admit that the waters

Around you have grown

And accept it that soon

You'll be drenched to the bone

If your time to you

Is worth savin'

Then you better start swimmin'

Or you'll sink like a stone

For the times they are a-changin'.

(the times they are a changin' - bob dylan)

Whisper Kiss

Trampled by trains kicked in the brains licking life off your face sweaty and stained Sick in the back elastic slack in the comet black daylight choking on crack.

(for many men there is so much greed and my mind is proud but it aches with rage and if i live too long im afraid i'll die.)

The best year of your life also ends. 

(And when the night is new I'll be looking at the moon but I'll be seeing you)

(strangers - the kinks; i'll be seeing you - billie holiday)

Galaxy Taxi

Machine gun love

Sinking my battleships

Kissing my rotten lips

Oh oh. 

(You will surely find this, you will surely find this news pleasing to your ears.

You could surely try to be more alive.

Ah ahahahaha. Oh oh oh .

You could surely try to be more alive.

You could surely try to be more alive.

You could surely try to be more alive.)

I need to clean my room.

(Les Taxis pour les Galaxies, et mon tapis volant dis?)

("fraud in the 80s" - mates of state; "le vent nous portera" - noir desir)

It's Jenn's Birthday Today

Spider CRicKET

$800 car trouble trouble trouble.

i want to die.

and other things. (i don't want no more of you, so won't you be kind to me? Just let me go where, I have to go there.)

the dryer tore my clothes apart. one clothing item really. i think i can sew it back but it sucks.

everything hates me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!1!!!!!!omgomgomgomg

im dreading the spider crickets.

(All of the rumors keeping me grounded, I never said I never said that they were completely unfounded.)

To have money right now. Ohhh.

I wouldn't have that shit car thats giving me so much trouble trouble trouble. And I'd be able to eat once in a while.

I have to send my check for the electric.

stamps. 

distress.

coughing.

goodbye

(trouble - cat stevens; speedway - morrissey)

Wrecks

The Dead Girl Jaywalks

Adolescents / The Dreamspace / Jaywalking (Pre production)

Becomes

The Dead Girl Jaywalks

Sometime soon.

Zombies, Inspired by,!!! Zombies!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rescued by the tidal wave: picked up by the dug outs and taken out by the drunken junk. To bus drivers and their secret dreams of being radio stars. 

Overwhelmed in a zombie crowd. 

(I talk too much about you

Their ears are getting tired of my singing all the night through

Let's just talk together

You and me and me and you

And if there's nothing much to say...*)

GOOD WEEKEND.

(* the purple bottle animal collective)

Nineteen

Hello my dear, It's been a while but still. I think about you always. Suit and ties. Tumbler and apple juice ready. The lights go. Slouching, lumbering, bumbling in. Sit. Pick one up. Put it down. Pick it up. Listen and eye roll. Get up. Slumber on to tables with games. Walk out. Etc Etc Etc. All of you burned into me. It's crazy how such an ill-written escape could make me shake so. It's you and all of you and what you mean. And how I will never ever drop it. I miss you too and I think I said so back then but I'll say it again. Good day sir.

Can't Waait

Inglourious Basterds (Release date: August 21st, 2009)

The Honeybuns Full Court Press 3.31.09