The Next Morning, Neglect, Embarrassment (but what's really going on here?), and Being too far Away from Heavy Situations

1. confused, wondering what would have been if I had in fact joined the adventure. i'd have seen, and been clueless; or; no throwing would have taken place. More on this: a shrug of the lip, squint of the eye. suprise can be heavy too.

2.  shit. coping. a broken 'furthermore' 

and frustration by allergic reaction.

-wild horses scraped my ribs on the pointing fingers of mountain ranges-

mountain rage

"It's that your errands and chores mean more"

Business as usual.

3. a Cracked lip, i separate.

egg yolk to white. becoming glue. becoming

you.

supernatural embarrassment;

i care about you. and i don't know what that means (i hate that you heard it all).

maybe i am diseased

sick to my guts like rat poison cranberry

a high tide vomit city. tearing girl down like an ink stain.

i am so sorry.

4. You see I don't like being on the outside.